Helplessness : that dull, sick feeling of not being the one at the reins. When did you last feel like that –- and what did you do about it?
Kind of enveloped in that feeling now. It’s a constant, every time you feel you have things in control and figured out BAM! that just goes away. As if you jinxed it yourself.
I think that feeling of helplessness never goes away as long as you live, it lurks in the background.
Right now I don’t know how to deal with it. I have an idea of steps to take to have some semblance of control. But there’s the implementation part that seems to be lacking.
It surprising when everything is going good and it turns out the other way.
Underneath everything I know ,there is sometimes no such thing as “helpless”, it all depends on your intention pf dealing with it.
That’s why I hate that word and the feeling altogether. It’s an excuse.
It’s victimization of fully capable and brilliant people into null. All it takes is a tiny step ahead.